Today I want to talk about " Changes " we all need that thing that changes us from something to something else , well I have been there and I tried so many times to change but I failed, I was trying to care about people MORE! trying to get what I've lost , trying to do what others thinks its good so I can have my social life back , I used to be so popular * in good way * I know you kuwaitis have a big imagination so I have to explain more .I used to be popular in media which it was the best place I can be so creative in . but in one day , yes ONE DAY everything changed to the opposite , I didnt know why , what happened , I didnt know anything , from a well known girl in the media world to nothing , from a workaholic person to an unemployed person , It was that day that changed me to a very lazy person and very emotional , and what made it worse that a lots of my close friends left me alone to suffer , i was depressed , I overthink , eat and sleep for weeks * thats why im fat now* , I isolated myself , i thought it was me all me , because of me I lost my loved ones , because of me i lost my career my future my everything I've built for years , after two years I realized yes it was me overall.
for one or two situations of failure i fell down and i didnt get up , it was because I've gave a fu*# about what people will think what they say or why they left me , THAT WAS THE PROBLEM , and the plan is dont give a shit !! seriously you only have one life live it perfectly , and perfectly means getting close to God , and thank god everyday that you're alive , thank god that you have a home food and family , a most of all thank god that you'r in a rich country and you're a muslim, all you have to care about is Allah.
